Back to Spring ‘23

Madison Lazenby

Remember: No Hands Allowed


I’ve been peeling a pomegranate all day, imagining it

as my virginity, a baggie of seeds to keep

warm in my coat pocket

& eat later & find in my teeth

like my favorite wine so silted

with pieces of cork floating in the bottle

it looked yellow, one long

piece of puckered purple skin curling

in my hand, the inner flesh feathery & wet as a tampon string,

the little braided tail I grew up convinced

would one day fail me

& I was told by the older-

&-wiser girls at summer camp

that if such a thing were to happen,

I’d have to log into my God-given

harddrive to push out

the finger of cotton

it left behind,

bloody as a baby,

bloody as a lost tooth,

bloody as tomato soup

with hot sauce.

as the orgasm subsides, I say grace

— After “Praise Song” by Barbara Crooker

Bless what little time there is, what there ever

once was. Bless the closed door & the window shade

yawning open. Bless the wine we drank

last night & the funny pills we swallowed & all

the colors we smelled on our skin.

Bless your skin. Bless your hands

on my skin. Bless the elegies I wrote

to your broken glasses & the sonnets

I wrote to your teeth. Bless your teeth

& bless your nose while I’m at it.

Bless the rising sun that tells us,

motherly like a Mary or a Teresa, to go

the fuck to sleep. Bless the towns

we grew up in & all their rituals & bless

the gas you pumped into my car

to cross the stateline. Bless each & every one

of the cows we saw along the highway

& bless your hand pillowed on the back of my neck

while I drove us through the pouring rain.

Bless the meaningless darkness at 3 pm,

bless this old feeling winter,

& bless the pillow that collects my sweat.