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American Bittersweet

BY MIRIAM MAYER

“Abuse”

is too heavy a word.

When your therapist first uses it

you try it like hand-me-downs

one size too small

or the palest in a batch of berries.


It doesn’t sit right at the seams.

It tastes sour on your lips.


So you lean into the idea that maybe

your parents are toxic. American

Bittersweet doesn’t aim to maim,

only to grow,


but if you pluck its autumn fruit,

crush to a pulp, swallow the yellow,

it will fight all the way down. And


they are always fighting you.


You who dared to disobey.

You in your too-tight clothes.

You in your too-small town.